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Name: Mark
Country: United States
State: North Carolina
Metro: Raleigh
Birthday: 6/30/1986
Gender: Male
Interests: I love music, drinking, parties, hanging out with the fellas, drinking, sleeping, eating, pooping, peeing, farting, yawning, sneezing and....hmm...watching tv!
Expertise: Being an asshole, a negative person, and over-all bastard, who also happens to be Fat. So, a Fat Bastard.
Occupation: Engineering
Industry: Retail
Message: message me
Website: visit my website
AIM:  mastashoalin
Member Since:
3/24/2005
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| So i spent all of today doing absolutely fucking nothing. Holy shit....anyway....I was watching this show on ESPN hosted by this black guy named Stephen A Smith. And he opens the show and he starts talking about how theres no black coaches in the NCAA division I college football. Theres 4 out of 117 teams that have a black head coach. There are 6 in the NFL with like...30 something teams. Now Im a white guy so of course the first thing I did was scoff at what he was saying like you know 'Bullshit' but then I thought..'Hey..Steve A Smith...this guy....has HIS HEAD UP HIS ASS!' He starts talking about how much of a disgrace it is that theres only 4 head coaches in NCAA football who are black and then they showed a pan shot of his audience, and it was 99% white. All of them smiling and clapping. Like what?! I hate to say this and sound like a fucking rascist redneck but if theres no black people stepping up to the plate and showing potential to lead a football team, then maybe thats why theres no goddamned negro coachesi n the NCAA. I guaren-fucking-tee you the NCAA board or whatever was not sitting around their office one day thinking 'Hmm all the good players are black, so i guess to keep our supposed dominance over the darkies well make all the coaches white!!' Yeah Stephen A Smith, thats what happened. The NCAA DOESNT WANT BLACK COACHES. Uh huh. Do you know what that sounds like to me?! Black people blaming their problems on someone else. Oh! I said it. Maybe the fact that its 4 in the morning and I have nothing better to do than watch ESPN and type on this is making me mad but goddamnit I cant stand hearing that bullshit anymore. "Oh I cant hold a job cuz da white man be tryin to keep us black folk down". God forbid the reason you cant hold a job be blamed on the fact you speak like a 10 year old or you have a 10th grade education and dropped out of high school?! Its the fucking white man. Just like how we introduced cocaine into the poor black neighborhoods and we left all the black people in New Orleans to die...yeah ...christ... I lose respect for black people as a race everytime they cop out that its the white man or its somebody elses fault they dont have this or that. Its the NCAAs fault theres only 4 black head coaches. YEAH EAT MY ASS! Fuck...
I also want to state that I find hearing black people bring up slavery is like me bringing up how the English killed William Wallace. Just cuz my name is wallace. Yeah they treated the Scots horrible, but not one single Scottish person today actually went through it so, you know what, the subject is FUCKING CLOSED! Black people dont get to use slavery as an excuse ANYMORE! Unless there are any living slaves out there who actually lived through it, then they can actually speak up about it, them and nobody else.
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| Want a new band to listen to? Ben Folds. Pianos? Yea. Gay? No.
Canada recently posted a poem that he felt resembled some of his feelings/experiences. Well, I have this.
Ben Folds - Sentimental Guy
There's a moment in my mind
I scribbled and erased a thousand times
Like a letter never written or sent
These conversations with the dead
I used to be a sentimental guy
Now I'm haunted by the left unsaid
I never thought so much could change
Little things you said or did
are part of me, come out from time to time
Probably no one I know now would notice
But I never thought so much could change
You drifted far away
Far away it seems
Time has stopped, the clock keeps going
People talkin' and I'm watching
As flashes of their faces go black and white
And fade to yellow in a box in an attic
But I never thought so much
Could change, now I don't miss anyone
I don't miss anything
What a shame cause I used to be a sentimental guy
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| I figure i might as well update this thingy. And how better to do it than tipsy. Was over at Jigga Johns tonite, had some Smirnoff and Coors. Played some poker, no money but shots for the losers. Woot. Came home peed 1 to 3 times. Love the clear liquor pees. Mmm...Anyway...I have learned a new trick. If something is bothering you, or your in a shitty mood or have a crappy disposition in life, do this. Get drunk and be merry. Just take a couple shots, chase it with a beer or three, sit back, relax, have some fun with pals. Listen to some good music. I, myself, have Prodigy going now. Now im sure all 2 of you who read this are thinking, "But hey fatfuck, you get drunk plenty, whatre you talking about you just learned this?" I have never once drank to make any sort of pain go away before. Why was i feeling some sort of pain you ask? I wasnt really feeling any pain just a sort of...weird...numb feeling. So I said "Hey fuck you feeling, im going to drown you now" I didnt get shitfaced and puke everywhere, I didnt start crying like a litte Troy-bitch. I drank until I couldnt feel anything, and everything was funny. And I had to pee alot. Thats the magical spot. Thats what drinking is all a-fucking-bout. I hate losing control of myself, and have come close several times whilest drinking. Part of the reason my friends have never seen me get royally shitfaced. (The other part being by the time im even close to being shithoused, theyre far too gone to remember shit) But the magic drinking spot man, where you cant stand up straight and you feel hot. When you hit that youve had enough now just sit back and relax. Learn to MAINTAIN the buzz, not make it worse. When you make it worse then you get to the deep down emotions and start losing yourself. Oh the number of grown men ive seen alcohol reduce to tears. I never want to tap into that resevoir of emotion I know i have buried deep down there. I could very well see alcohol bringing that out of me and i wont allow it. "But why mark let your feelings show! Let them out!" No, fuck that. I like what little emotions i do have and feel regularly right whre they are. Caged like the wild animal all emotion can turn into. Im not saying im crazy or wild but emotion in even the most sane person can envelope them and make them do things theyd normally never do. Like alcohol. So emotions are sort of like a drug. A Bad evil drug or a good awesome drug. Depending on which side of it your on apparently. Wow i sound preachy, enough of this i need to pee again and my pillow is calling my fucking name man... until a later, more sober time, im Out. | | |
| Here I am at work tonite. Sal is making food, Devron cooking, and im on
the register takin orders. I see a chick and two guys walk infront of
the store from the left side, and immediately i say to myself 'OoOoOo a
sexy blonde chick'. Because at our store we rate the chicks who come
in, although it being a Long John Silvers...a sexy chick is rare. I did
have 3 hot chicks at the store tonite though...good nite. Anyway, so I
see this chick and then after remarking to myself in my head about the
shapliness of her buttocks and the largness of her bosom, i notice that
*GASP* I know this girl. Sweet. Turns out it was a girl we used to hang
out with and were pretty good friends with named Amanda Fajardo.
Technically it should be Fa-ha-rdo but i always used the J sound to
make her mad. Great fun. So she comes in big smile and all and she has
these two preppy, sort of...druggy..looking...guys with her. Of course,
I think, oneo f these two is her man because shes to sexy not to be
taken. I was right. We talked for a minute at the register, found out
what was going on and such. I havent seen her in about..a year and a
half maybe when the place we normally hung out at sort of went to shit.
But the last time i saw her she was kind of chunky in the mid section
and was not as attractive as she was today. I inquired what she had
done and she said 'Coke'. Hmm...Coke. Maybe that should be a new diet.
The Coke Diet. I knew one of our other friends, Tina, had been on coke
and had changed drastically and ive yet to see post-coke Tina. Maybe
shes lost weight and looks alot better too. Tina and Amanada were sexy
even though they had some extra weight on em, who am i to judge really?
:) What struck me was how non-chalantly she said it though. As if coke
was just like Atkins. Christ...i mean she lost like...30 or 40 lbs
since the last time id seen her. 5"4' or so, and she couldnt have
weighed over 115. Maybe 120 she does have a big, gorgeous rack. Maybe i
should start the new Coke Diet, i mean look at Lindsay Lohan. Just take
all the money i spend on food and..anything..and sink it all into coke,
then maybe i can get laid!! Right!
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| Holy crap I cant take this time off of work. It sucks. I dont know how people do it. I used to think to myself when I was younger about how it was gonna suck when I got a job because from that point on Id have to have a job basically until I was an old fucker. Or I died. Now, I cant stand being at home with nothing to do. I dont know how housewives do it, I dont know how unemployed people do it. I have this routine of TV, then internet, then TV, then video games. Then food. Then more of that same cycle, until 3 or 4 when I go to bed. All day. Most of my other friends work on mondays when im off. I like having Friday and Saturday off because thats the weekend, everybody is up for doing stuff. But having mondays off now sucks total ass. So bored in fact that i updated this thing. Maybe i need a woman. HA! MAYBE?! PSSSHHH, im going insane. | | |
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